This week I've had a bad taste in my mouth, not the one that you can brush your teeth or throw some Listerine on.
This bad taste is for learning, cooperating, doing my best, and working hard.
I don't want to do any of those things.
There is a 60 year old lady who lives across from us and every time she sees me she is asks if I have prayed to God about going into a different major...
Every time she asks, "Did you go to God, did you ask about going into something else? Because I care about your future and I don't want you to be a job that will be bad for your family, more work than you can understand, huge amounts of paper work and on top of it you don't even get compensated as you should."
3 things:
1.I didn't ask for your opinion
2.I am going off an impression and it's hard enough to know that I'm doing the right thing without you criticizing me on what I feel is right.
3. You don't know anything about Matt and I, so please don't act like you truly care about us when the only conversations that we have with each other is how I'm going the wrong direction in my life.
Seriously. I did not ask for your opinion.
She leaves a bad taste and I'm letting that conversation ruin my day.
Should I let it ruin my day?
No.
But I'm a hard head, so it will even for a few minutes.
But I'm a hard head, so it will even for a few minutes.
Sometimes it is nice to be mad at the world, sometimes it is ok to not be ok.
Sometimes you want to call in sick to work but can't because you need the money.
Sometimes you wish you could just fall asleep on your desk and not have to worry about stupid classes that aren't worth your time.
Sometimes you wish that your neighbors wouldn't be so nosey.
I don't need to be watched over.
My husband and I will make due and will pick our own way...
Even now this blogpost has left a bad taste in my mouth because recently I have tried to just let things fall off my shoulder, not worrying so much about them. Really most of this post is just blowing off steam...
...time to eat 5 Altoids.
4 comments:
Honey,
You know what you want to be God told you. So, don't let that lady sway you in anyway. Yes, you have asked God. Just know that in your heart. Maybe she is just concerned for your welfare. Blow it off. I know what you mean though.
It's so easy to let what someone says sit in the corner of your mind. It sneaks to the forefront of your brain whenever it gets a chance. And it eats you up inside any time you think about it! Sometimes the best remedy is time. Give it a little time and I bet what she says won't have any effect on you anymore. And I completely understand how you feel. I skipped math this morning. Just simply didn't feel like going. Haha.
This kinda reminds me of how every time we visit my grandma, she asks why we don't visit her more often. I'm here now, aren't I? Enjoy the time you have with me.
And hey - at least she's not asking when you're going to have kids, right? P.S. A good response to that question is "We're trying all the time - we tried last night in fact." :D
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