I wonder if you think of me, whenever I think of you.

Think about the times we had, the things we used to do.

I know we had out down times, but boy we had our highs.

I never realized how much I cared, I hope you know I never lied.

I took the time we had and didn't cherish it as I should,

I now live with the regret for letting you down, and losing you for good.

I now often wonder about the future and what it will hold.

For once upon a time with you I thought I would grow old.

Times have changed, only memories left to sustain what could have been.

I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused you, i'm sorry we didn't win.

We had the chance to reach the moon and fly on towards the sun,

Although difficult times being long and hard put a hold onto our song.

I hope that days may once again be filled with that light.

Am I holding onto an empty dream, accompanied with tears?

I'm afraid that everything that is progressing will only cement my fears

I'm unsure if these words will ever find your eyes, mind, or heart

Having said that...

I always loved you...even though I didn't show it, from the very start.

Songs can sometimes portray what is felt better than your own words...

Maybe I'm a dreamer

Maybe I'm misunderstood

Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should

Maybe I'm crazy

(Maybe I'm crazy)

Maybe I'm the only one

(Maybe I'm the only one)

Maybe I'm just out of touch

Maybe I've just had enough

Maybe it's time to change

And leave it all behind

I've never been one to walk alone

I've always been scared to try

So why does it feel so wrong

To reach for something more

To wanna live a better life

What am I waiting for?

'Cause nothing stays the same

Maybe it's time to change

Maybe it's hopeless

(Maybe it's hopeless)

Maybe I should just give up

(Maybe I should just give up)

What if I can't trust myself?

What if I just need some help?

Maybe it's time to change

And leave it all behind

I've never been one to walk alone

I've always been scared to try

So why does it feel so wrong

To reach for something more

To wanna live a better life

What am I waiting for?

'Cause nothing stays the same

Maybe it's time to change

And maybe it's time to change

And leave it all behind

I've never been one to walk alone

I've always been scared to try

And maybe it's time to change

And leave it all behind

I've never been one to walk alone

I've always been scared to try

So why does it feel so wrong

To reach for something more

To wanna live a better life

What am I waiting for?

'Cause nothing stays the same

Maybe it's time to change

'Cause nothing stays the same

Maybe it's time to change

***After you've lost everything, maybe IT IS time to change...

I'm so heartsick. I can't seem to catch a breath fast enough before the tears come back.

I hurt inside.

I hurt because I know I messed something amazing up and I don't know if I will get it back. I hurt because I lost it because of who I am, where I am in life. Who I am not. I wasn't trying, I wasn't putting forth the effort that was needed.. so therefore, why should I get the prize? I haven't worked and now that I've lost it I want to work hard and I am working hard, but it doesn't mean i'm going to get it back.

"What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?

What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?

I'm falling to pieces"

I know I have to figure things out on my own... still doesn't make it hurt any less.