Thursday, February 24, 2011


I love this song now: Love it.

We all have moments in our lives.
Moments of excitement
Moments of sadness
Moments of pure bliss
Moments of heartache
Moments of days in the sun
Moments of dancing in the rain
Moments of letting go
Moments of realizing what is right
Moments of realizing what is wrong
Moments of forgetting the pain
Moments of laughter
Moments of strength
Moments of weakness
Moments where life is better than your dreams

As we remember "those" moments that define who we are, we come realize the love we have for ourselves and the opportunity to keep those moments coming, so one day we can look back and see how far we have fallen, gotten back up, and continued on to amazing and great things.I'm not sure why I'm being so reflective today. But if someone looks like they need a hug or a smile or just a, "hello" then go out of your way and do those things. You more than likely will change how the person's day has been going or even their outlook on life.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011


What the heck would we do without them?

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

World Issues

Today in all my classes there have been made mention of the issues that plague the United States, and the world. Some areas of the globe are being hit with massive earthquakes, uprooting the daily lives a thousands of people. Others are trying to tear down governments, some have succeeded and many are losing lives and will be unable to see the outcome of the bloodshed. Rape and child abuse was the topic in my life-span development class, there is so much that people can do, but we don't step up to the plate even when there is a suggestion to what is happening because there isn't enough, "evidence". No wonder we as a people don't trust one another! We can't trust that people will be there when we put ourselves on the line and ask for help. Or tell someone we need help and have them as our advocate to get something done. When we put ourselves out there someone tries to break us down or fight against what is right because they want to see that life is honkey dorey and that nothing is wrong if it has "nothing to do with you".

If you live on this earth, if you live in your community, if you care about someone whether it be a friend or family is your business.

I feel that we as a society have lost the idea of what is important or what is right and humane. I, myself, get lost in what is good in life and forget about what is happening over seas. Where people aren't able to eat, drink, sleep, or work for themselves. We are spoiled and don't realize the good that we can do but by remembering that we are all human, we are all important, and we all have families, lives, hopes, dreams, and want a better life...we could maybe make a difference in the world and not see it slowly go (or more quickly now) down to pot.
We need to care more about each other.
We need to live for each other.
We need to do all we can with the tools and abilities we are given.

It sucks when reality slaps you in the face and throws you to the ground because you feel you haven't done jack squat to help anyone ...

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Day 30 a photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past

Well here we are ladies and gents, we made it to the final day of the:
30 days blog challenge! Can you believe it?!?!
I can't.
1. I have never blogged so much in my life
2. I probably won't blog about anything for the next 30 days (that's a lie)
3. It was fun while it lasted but I'm sure you're sick of hearing about the things that make up my life or things that really don't apply to myself at all.
BUT! It is a blog...with my name on it. So of course it's going to be about me.

I still have to finish this last blog post (in the 30 day challenge)
*Photo of myself today (check)

3 good things that have happened in the past:
1. I am alive, I am healthy (always been)
2. I still have the same friends that I had while I was growing up and I hope that never changes.
3. I was blessed with the love of music and have gotten to share it in more instances than I would ever dreamed of being able to. I love music and the power and courage it can bring into people's lives.

So there we go. It is finished.

If you want to take a look back at this little adventure I took go ahead and click HERE and start from the beginning and maybe even start your own 30 blog challenge!
(This 30 day blog challenge has given me the courage to re-vamp the blog)


Day 29 something that you could never get tired of doing

Taking crazy/silly pictures is a favorite, favorite past-time of mine :)
It can happen at anytime, any place, and with ANYONE...

Getting locked out of my Apartment
The "one" ring
Rain does this to people
Rollercoasters are a fear of mine
Never knew recycling Jane Austen could be to exciting

It's hard to cross my eyes
Gapping mouths for the pie we were going to attempt to eat
Too. Much. Sun.
THAT is how you play Leap-Frog
This is normally how our faces look.
I will have very odd wrinkles when I get older. Yes, yes I will.

Day 28 your favorite music

I can't believe it's asking me to pick between my favorite music.
I have many, many, many love so this is really hard.
Probably the hardest thing, because I love so many different types of music.
But I will try my best to not bore you to death but show you the type of person I am through music.

(Just click the title to be taken to a video for the song)

"All I Ask of You" - Phantom of the Opera (This will exemplify all Broadway songs I love)

Those are only a handful of my favorites...Or current favorites.
My choice of song varies as the days and weeks go on :)

You can tell a lot about a person from the music they listen to...
What do you think about me?

Day 27 a picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?

This theme of today has been on my mind all day.
It has been the bane of my existence today.
I have given time to think about what has changed about me in the past year..
is it bad to say that I don't feel like I've changed very much at all?
That's bad.
Because I have changed...I think.
Physically: I've lost 10 pounds in the last year. It is true that fat weighs less than muscle.
Emotionally: I still am not happy where I am, but am happy with bounds I have taken.
Spiritually: My testimony has grown.

And today I'm making goals everyday from now on and making bounds towards the future.
Today was a wonderful day, especially in LDC. I love that choir and all that happens in there.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Day 26 a photo of somewhere you've been too

I love the crepes
I love the people
I love the sights
I love the sounds
I love the smells
I love the food
I love the memories

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Day 25 what's in your purse?

I rarely take a purse with me anywhere.
But when I do I usually have:
* My money's
* Camera
* Lip-balm

I have never been one to have a large bag as big as the upper-half of my body or have crazy purses in general. I just usually carry my wallet and my phone in my peacoat pocket. Because usually when I have my purse I am on a mission to buy something.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Day 24 a photo of something that means a lot to you

I love these girls
Rauni and I had the opportunity to do baptisms and Ashleigh and Jamie (soon-to-be) sister missionaries did endowment sessions.
We ate at the pie and just had a great day.

Friday, February 11, 2011

Day 23 15 facts about you

1. I am short, and have an eye color that no one else does
2. I love music, I love singing, I love losing myself in the music
3. I love food, cooking, preparing, sharing
4. I love to give thoughts especially when I know it's worth while
5. I am accident prone
6. I love to be crazy, and act childish in a way of forgetting about the worries of the world and just dance crazy, laugh loud, and re-enact the "old" days
7. I want to one day run a marathon
8. I love kissing, hugging, smelling, touching, loving, eating, playing, running, dancing, doodling, and learning
9. I am horrible at thinking about 15 facts about myself
10. I am hungry

Time to eat.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Day 22 a letter to someone who has hurt you recently

I have not recently been hurt but I have recently hurt.


I have been listening to a book on Cd by Elder Neal A. Maxwell called, "All these things shall give thee experience" and it has really opened my ears, eyes, my soul to the reasons why we are are asked or pushed to experience certain trials. Some are of our own making and others are placed in by our Heavenly Father for our growth. The ones that give us the most grief in life though are those that are ones that are made by decisions we make. I can attest this by the situation I find myself in and how I have hurt someone. By my actions I caused pain, uncertainty and many other emotions. I have done this countless times to people that I love. We all makes mistakes and it is the hardest thing to do in life to ask for forgiveness from someone you have hurt.

A quote from the book on Cd that I heard last night was this, "He (Heavenly Father) even indicated that some of the weaknesses and infirmities given to us can actually become a strength to us. It is in our weakness in [the] extremity [that] Gods power [is] fully felt. Only when of ourselves we are helpless is his help truly appreciated."

I have weaknesses. I know what they are, and i'm working on them. And the gospel is the prominent thing in my life now and will continue to be. It's at the forefront of my mind and will not likely go away. I am helpless but He is helping me everyday. I can feel of His love for me and for the bounds I am making.

I'm sorry for the hurt. I'm sorry for the uncertainty . I will always love you. Even though my actions may suggest otherwise. You are my best friend, confidant, and mean more to me than the things of this world.

I am sorry from the deepest reaches of my heart
Love Brianna


I came to school too early today and decided instead of heading home and not getting a single thing done, I would scale the 6 flights of stairs up to the top level of the library grab two chairs; one for my feet and the other for me bum and get to reading of the chapter that I would be quizzed on at 1pm this afternoon.
As I situated myself I got to listening to my good and old friend Pandora, they had a "suggestive" station that was a love station, and in the time of Valentine's Day around the corner I thought I would take a listen. I chose a Pop station, because I like Pop. I like the consistent beats that most, if not all, the songs have underneath all the other instruments strumming away. Over the course of the hour I was taken back to high school with songs that were huge at those dances us girls would takes hours upon hours to get ready for, for that special guy. Among them:

"The Reason" - Hoobastank
"Kiss me" - Sixpence none the richer
"You're still the one" - Shania Twain
"I'm yours" - Jason Mraz
"Follow me" - Uncle Kracker
"I don't want to miss a thing" - Aerosmith
"Hey there delilah" - Plain white T's
"Wonderwall" - Oasis
"I'll Be" - Edwin McCain
"Better Together" - Jack Johnson

Now the last one is what sparked this little random post. Jack Johnson's songs are very repetitive and if you strung them all together you probably would have a song that was 2 1/2 hours long because his timing doesn't change. But his lyrics are magical. They have a way of getting me to think and to take a moment out of the busy and the crowded thoughts to stop. In that moment of thinking I looked out the huge 2 story windows that I am sitting in front of and looked down on the parking spaces that people were winding in and out of. Behind that is the freeway, the cars going 75 miles per hour or more were in stark contrast to those moving slowly or even at a complete stop waiting for someone to pull out so they could pull in and rush to their class that they are now late for because of waiting 10 mins for that stinking parking spot.

Moral of this is that the parking lot and freeway reminded me of the game, "Frogger".
I was have expecting a large green frog to come jumping across the cement looking for a free log to jump to next and on the prowl for his next huge fly.

You know people don't always have to be profound :)

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Day 21 a photo of something that makes you happy

I'm going to take the reigns and turn this post into a few or more photos of something that makes me happy. So very happy.
Most of them, if not all involving the people in my life.
Running out in the rain when it starts and getting drenched with someone you adore.
Jumping photos.
Being a dork with these two.
Lots and lots of laughing.
Staring people down while singing.
No really, I love singing even though I sometimes look like i'm in pain.
To an extent drama/theater people make me happy. Especially when we all understand what corsets and very large hoop skirts feel like. We more or less bond together.
Holding Hands.
My grandma Joy. My mother has saved a birthday song that was sung to me by this dear little lady when I was turning 19. It made me tear up last night when my mom put it up to my ear.

I'm so happy that I have these pictures to remember the good times, keep them in the fore front of my mind and keep moving forward to continue making these wonderful, fun, and loving memories.

What makes you happy?

Monday, February 7, 2011

Day 20 the meaning behind your blog name

I feel as though my blog name is how my mind works, how it puts sentences or thoughts together. My whole life is like a patchwork quilt there have been squares that are the good times and then pieces that i'm still sewing together. There are also squares that I would much rather take out, start over, and replace with a new one but it wouldn't be me then would it.

Along with the squares I would want to take out, I've hurt someone terribly these last couple days.
And I've made a, "I'm Sorry" square, it's rather large in my head with frayed edges and letters oozing down the fabric. This square is meant for one person. You know who you are, if you even read this anymore. I'm so very sorry for hurting you.

"How did a nice girl like me get into a mess like this?

Somethings we all need to remember, especially myself.

1. Embrace this day with an enthusiastic welcome, no matter how it looks.

2. The covenants with God to which you are true enable you to become enlightened by him, and nothing is impossible for you.

3. When you are physical sick, tired, or in despair, steer your thoughts away from yourself and direct them in gratitude and love towards God.

4. In your life there have to be challenges. They will either bring you closer to God, and therefore make you stronger, or they can destroy you. But you make the decision of which road you take.

5. First and foremost you are spirit child of God. If you neglect to feed your spirit, you will reap unhappiness. Don’t permit anything to detract you from this awareness.

6. You cannot communicate with God unless you have first sacrificed your self-oriented natural man and have brought yourself into the lower levels of meekness, to become acceptable for the Light of Christ.

7. Put all frustrations, hurt feelings and grumblings into the perspective of your eternal hope. Light will flow into your soul.

8. Pause to ponder the suffering Christ felt in the Garden of Gethsemane. In the awareness of the depth of gratitude for him, you appreciate every opportunity to show your love for him by diligently serving in his Church.

9. God knows that you are not perfect. As you suffer about your imperfections, he will give you comfort and suggestions of where to improve.

10. God knows better than you what you need. He always attempts to speak to you. Listen, and follow the uncomfortable suggestions that he makes to us--- everything will fall into its place.

11. Avoid any fear like your worst enemy, but magnify your fear about the consequences of sin.

12. When you cannot love someone, look into that person’s eyes long enough to find the hidden rudiments of the child of God in him (her).

13. Never judge anyone. When you accept this, you will be freed. In the case of your own children or subordinates, where you have the responsibility to judge, help them to become their own judges.

14. If someone hurts you so much that your feelings seem to choke you, forgive and you will be free again.

15. Avoid at all cost any pessimistic, negative, or criticizing thoughts. If you cannot cut them out, they will do you harm.

16. On the road toward salvation, let questions arise but never doubts. If something is wrong, God will give you clarity but never doubts.

17. Avoid rush and haste and uncontrolled words. Divine light develops in place of peace and quiet. Be aware of that as you enter places of worship.

18. Be not so much concerned about what you do, but what you do with all your heart, might, and strength. In thoroughness is satisfaction.

19. You want to be good and to do good? That is commendable. But the greatest achievement that can be reached in our lives is to be under the complete influence of the Holy Ghost. Then he will teach us what is really good and necessary to do.

20. The pain of sacrifice last only one moment. It is the fear of the pain of sacrifice that makes you hesitate to do it.

21. Be grateful for every opportunity to serve. It helps you more than those you serve.

22. When you are compelled to give up something or when things that are dear to you are withdrawn from you, know this is your lesson to be learned right now. But know also that as you are learning this lesson, God wants to give you something better.

Thus, we prepare all the days of our lives, and, as we grow, death loses its sting, hell loses its power, and we look forward to that day with anticipation of joy that he will come in his glory.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Day 19 another picture of yourself

Do you ever get the feeling that you ruined your whole life...or whole future or someone else's?
Do you ever wish you could take something you said back?
Do you ever wish that you could take the hurt away?
Yeah, me too.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Friday, February 4, 2011

Day 17 a photo of you and your family

Well in a way I have two families, so I'll try and find an appropriate picture for both.
I lovers them all.
I love them immensely.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Day 16 you celebrity crush

Eric Bana is my celebrity crush

He is so sweet when he acts and just look at those big puppy dog brown eyes!
He may be 2x my age (exactly) but he is handsome as can be. And a girl can dream and guawk at the T.V. a few times while watching, "The time travelers wife" or " The other Boleyn girl".

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Day 15 something you don't leave the house without

My cell phone.
Anyone that you ask will say I'm a bit obsessed with the thing.
Especially texting.
Don't go judging.

Day 14 a TV show you're currently addicted to

This one has been a hard thing to think up.
I haven't been watching real tv for awhile.
When I was watching TV I was addicted to: say yes to the dress on TLC.
Here's a little peak at what I can watch for 3 hours at a time.
Oh the drama of finding the "perfect" dress!!!!
Also I have been catching "The Office" on netflix with Matt recently.
I love the pranks that Jim does to Dwight.
They are very silly, and make me laugh to the high heavens and back.
Here is one of my favorite opening scenes from the office.

How can you make it all the way through this without laughing!!! HAHA!
Addiction, yes.

Day 13 your favorite musician and why?

So I know that i'm posting this a day late...seeing as I've been a bit busy with school, work, and just life. But here I go catching up...posting two in one day.

My favorite musician...Do I even have one? Curious.

Well seeing as I can't think of a favorite I will go with the one that I have been listening to their songs intently over the past few days especially one called, "Marry Me" by Train. I love Train's feel good songs that just make you happy and bring that little ray of sunshine into some days where it seems only gray skies above. "Hey, soul sister" is one of my absolute favs and it reminds me of warmer times in the year seeing as we are in a 25 below weather warning for dear old Utah. Brrrr.
So here are both songs for your enjoyment:)
First one: Marry Me

And the second one: Hey, Soul Sister

I love the little cartoon walking up and down the sidewalk. Love it love.
Which I could re-create it, but I can't...So I will continue to watch Train's music videos :)