sometimes...

While I was reading one of my favorite blogs which I follow, a.k.a. click here,
She suggested that we copy and paste bolded sentences and fill them in to the things we like to do. So here I go:

SOMETIMES....

I get weirdly excited about watching food shows and then scrounging around for money so that I can go buy a container of blueberries for 1.70 at sunflower market and large salad bars. I go crazy.

I feel overwhelmed with gratitude when someone takes the time to send me a "I'm thinking about you" text out of the blue. It makes my day and it helps me strive to be a better person by doing the same thing to others.

I can't stop thinking about life and if I'm doing everything correctly, and if marriage will be as amazing as every says it will be. Even with the bumps and the possibility of a couple complete meltdowns due to stress and figuring out how we are going to make it through.

I just want to eat cinnamon and sugar toast, and chocolate cream pie all day, every day.

I am kinda a bad person and don't want to have a career, I want to be a mom.

I wish I could dye my hair blonde, I will be blonde one day for once in my life.

I just don't understand the allure of fried pig skins, sushi, and rap music.

I can't believe how close I am to being married, to a guy I actually want to be with forever, never ever thought that would happen.

I strongly consider spending a lot of money on decked out kitchen and a refrigerator that has all the food I could possibly want to cook with.

Try this yourself: Just copy and paste the bolded areas and fill in your..."sometimes"...

Give me chills, and give me them again

Overwhelmed: 10 min waste of time

I'm having one of those days where you think of everything at the same time that you need to get done within your life or within the next two years and you start freaking out and wondering how the heck in the world you're going to manage. Then, as you're sitting in your health for teachers class they are going over how to write lessons plans and your heart starts to tense up and you have no idea how you are going to accomplish writing 300 or more lesson plans by the time you are out of the program, which starts in the fall. Then you end up crying buckets and buckets on the way of home from school and calling your poor father who has to listen to you blabber about how many students loans you have, before you are entering marriage, how many years you have wasted on schooling when you had no idea what you wanted to do and now you're going to school on whim which you thought was an impression from the spirit but you're not sure anymore, because everyone who is around you in your classes seems more qualified or more into it. While you spent all of high school doing nothing, and everything that wasn't studying so you didn't get to go to the school you wanted and now you don't want to spend the time trying to get there any more because it wouldn't be worth the time and the energy. But then you realize that you are a lazy butt girl who doesn't know what she wants and has been spoiled for her whole life and therefore doesn't know how to take care of herself or others around her. Then someone says that you are role model when that is the last thing you are, because of all the horrible mistakes you have made which you are still dealing with and they still effect other people. Then you realize that you are so unorganized that you can't remember what assignment is due and you don't want to take the time to organize yourself but would rather spend 10 minutes of your precious day blogging about everything and anything that you can't change.

I need motivation

for school, and homework and life. Any suggestions?

A Sad Day Thoughts

I'm going to miss my family here in Colorado; my Dad, brother and Xan... even with phone and emails and letters it's still hard to say goodbye.