Anyway, tonight I was apart of a huge musical performance. My choir (UVU masterworks Chorale) ---(i hate the name by the way) and the utah valley symphony sang/performed, Brahms "Requiem". Last night we did it for the second time and i wasn't trying at all. I was barely singing the music, hardle paying attention to the conductor and the whole performance felt like a lifetime and a half. Literally, i could feel the life in me being sucked away and slowly trickling onto the floor. So in that hour i was miserable and was happier than i have ever been to have a performance end. So today, i was dreading as the minutes and hours ticked closer to the time that i had to drive over to the Covey arts center and sing that dang Requiem again. But, i went. And while i was waiting to be able to line up before the performance was to start i decided that I was going to actually "feel" the music this time. Enjoy it. Love it. And Live it. So i did. And during the performance I was amazed at so many beautiful technicalities I had missed the previous night. There is one part where the notes and phrasing of the choir were clinging onto the last note of a measure and everything just clicked. It was absolutely gorgeous, and I realized in that moment, WHY i love music so much. I love the way that it can transport all your 5 senses into a place you don't normally roam. You see magic within the notes and courage, adventure, doubt, love, peace, and joy in a matter of seconds. Melodies are trapped inside one another encompassed by the sneaky breath and the beautiful mood. You get goosebumps running up and down your body and you FEEL the music surrounding you. And THAT is why i do music, THAT is why i have stayed with music for so many years. It brings out the best in people, it shows that we are all different, but the same. There is happiness in the world, there is sadness. But with sadness comes great joy and a long fermata clinging onto that last moment of unbelief at how something could be so glorious.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
As the minutes tick by
So at this very moment i am procrastinating my last and final, final. I have gone of facebook, yahoo and finally here to blogger to see if anyone in the last several hours has posted anything for me to read. Alas, nothing. Not one tiny new detail about someones life that i can read about. It's quite sad really.. i love reading about people getting engaged, new babies, or how well they did on their final. It just gives me a sense of being apart of someones life even if they are several miles away, or just in the next room.
Anyway, tonight I was apart of a huge musical performance. My choir (UVU masterworks Chorale) ---(i hate the name by the way) and the utah valley symphony sang/performed, Brahms "Requiem". Last night we did it for the second time and i wasn't trying at all. I was barely singing the music, hardle paying attention to the conductor and the whole performance felt like a lifetime and a half. Literally, i could feel the life in me being sucked away and slowly trickling onto the floor. So in that hour i was miserable and was happier than i have ever been to have a performance end. So today, i was dreading as the minutes and hours ticked closer to the time that i had to drive over to the Covey arts center and sing that dang Requiem again. But, i went. And while i was waiting to be able to line up before the performance was to start i decided that I was going to actually "feel" the music this time. Enjoy it. Love it. And Live it. So i did. And during the performance I was amazed at so many beautiful technicalities I had missed the previous night. There is one part where the notes and phrasing of the choir were clinging onto the last note of a measure and everything just clicked. It was absolutely gorgeous, and I realized in that moment, WHY i love music so much. I love the way that it can transport all your 5 senses into a place you don't normally roam. You see magic within the notes and courage, adventure, doubt, love, peace, and joy in a matter of seconds. Melodies are trapped inside one another encompassed by the sneaky breath and the beautiful mood. You get goosebumps running up and down your body and you FEEL the music surrounding you. And THAT is why i do music, THAT is why i have stayed with music for so many years. It brings out the best in people, it shows that we are all different, but the same. There is happiness in the world, there is sadness. But with sadness comes great joy and a long fermata clinging onto that last moment of unbelief at how something could be so glorious.
Anyway, tonight I was apart of a huge musical performance. My choir (UVU masterworks Chorale) ---(i hate the name by the way) and the utah valley symphony sang/performed, Brahms "Requiem". Last night we did it for the second time and i wasn't trying at all. I was barely singing the music, hardle paying attention to the conductor and the whole performance felt like a lifetime and a half. Literally, i could feel the life in me being sucked away and slowly trickling onto the floor. So in that hour i was miserable and was happier than i have ever been to have a performance end. So today, i was dreading as the minutes and hours ticked closer to the time that i had to drive over to the Covey arts center and sing that dang Requiem again. But, i went. And while i was waiting to be able to line up before the performance was to start i decided that I was going to actually "feel" the music this time. Enjoy it. Love it. And Live it. So i did. And during the performance I was amazed at so many beautiful technicalities I had missed the previous night. There is one part where the notes and phrasing of the choir were clinging onto the last note of a measure and everything just clicked. It was absolutely gorgeous, and I realized in that moment, WHY i love music so much. I love the way that it can transport all your 5 senses into a place you don't normally roam. You see magic within the notes and courage, adventure, doubt, love, peace, and joy in a matter of seconds. Melodies are trapped inside one another encompassed by the sneaky breath and the beautiful mood. You get goosebumps running up and down your body and you FEEL the music surrounding you. And THAT is why i do music, THAT is why i have stayed with music for so many years. It brings out the best in people, it shows that we are all different, but the same. There is happiness in the world, there is sadness. But with sadness comes great joy and a long fermata clinging onto that last moment of unbelief at how something could be so glorious.
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