Everytime I have an opportunity to get outside my comfort zone I seem to get more anxious than actual excitement. I suddenly doubt myself more then I have in the last few months. And completely throw everything out of the window that I have been working so hard to achieve. I am auditioning for a musical tonight, and I have NEVER been good at auditions. You usually walk into a white room with a piano to your left, a judging table (filled with people who never smile or frown, so you have no idea what they are thinking) and that horrible big RED X in the middle of the room, where you the most vunerable. At the time, I feel so vunerable that I botch my audition every single time, and I am sick of it. I have been practicing this song for the last month and I want to do good on it. I just can't seem to control my emotions when it comes to auditioning. I think it has to do with me worrying too much about what people think of me. I know that I have at least a decent voice. I just don't have that punch or pazzaz in the audition room. Put me on stage after the audition and I will soar through the roof with energy.
I guess I just need to gain more confidence and keep doing these things that take me completely out of the box until one day (or tonight) it works out in my favor and I can do what I love doing.
One of my friends who has recently gotten over this same problem I had told me that you have to put your trust in the Lord, and if this is what he wants for you, then he will make it happen. Strong words...I just need to heed them and apply them to my life, and this audition. *breathe in ....breathe out*
Wish me luck!
3 comments:
I wish you the best of luck, my friend. I have a tendency to be a complete dolt when it comes to auditions.
Brianna. I think you are amazing. I wish that I could sing like you. You have the most beautiful clear voice of anyone I have ever met. I am envious of you. Don't freak yourself out.
I am so proud of you! I told you would would do AMAZING!!!! good work!
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